I don't breathe the way I used to

I had to get checked out in third period today because I was way too tired xD I didn't even ask my mom to pick me up though, I just texted her saying I was exhausted and the next thing I know, I'm getting called down to the office.

I had bad luck with food today xD I tried pre-heating the oven to make some fries and started smelling burnt plastic. So I open the oven and find that Mommy dearest was hiding the leftovers of Colin's birthday cake in the oven. So it's EVERYWHERE and there's a mini fire that keeps sparking around the melted icing and I'm freaking out and calling my mom and trying to pour water on it and xD it sucked. So then Mama comes home, cleans up and stuff, then puts the fries in the toaster oven for me. I forget about them. I walk into the kitchen about an hour later and it's FULL of smoke, fries are black as night and I'm just like xD man, wtf, I'm apparently destined to not eat these fries.

It was weird. I finally got some made safely, though :)

I've been listening to nevershoutnever and eatmewhileimhot the entire time that I've been home. They make me so happy <33

My mom said if I can show some real effort in school and pick grades up, I can get a job :) one of her friends at work has his own business with his wife and said he could get me hired there :D so I'm going to try really hard. It would only be a few hours because I'm only 15, but it's still something.

Today was relatively good though :)



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I need to finish a lot of homework, though. I love you guys. Oh, by the way, publishing comments still isn't working for me for some reason :( but I would be commenting everyone if I could. I'm still reading though :D so just know.

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I had a really good weekend.

On Friday, Sheri and I went to Hooly's after school to watch FORGETTING SARAH MARSHALL. Wonderful movie :p Then Colin picked Sheri and me up, dropped Sheri off at home, then took me home to change before we went to Bean's brother's house. Yeah, I sat there with Ariel while Matt, Colin, Bean, and Matty Warr played video games. Was really boring xD so Colin took me home and we chilled around for maybe an hour before he went back to Matt's house. I pretty much fell dead asleep 30 minutes after he left :)

On Saturday, I woke up to find that Colin was here and after some convincing, he got me to go to his house. I brought my school stuff and my laptop so I could get work done :) He finished TWILIGHT while I was there and I was excited cause I could then show him some trailers without having to skip parts :D We watched CLICK with his parents and ate some really yummy pie his momma made. I ended up staying the night, I watched him play BIOSHOCK which I found really cool and creepy, then we slept on an air mattress in the living room :p

I woke up at like REALLY EARLY HOURS cause his dad was in the kitchen xD it wasn't even slightly light outside yet. I pretty much tossed and turned from that point forward until we got up and ate CHEERIOS! Then we chilled around for a bit before he dropped me off here so he could go to his flight lesson. So, it was a really good weekend. Right now, I'm finishing homework so I can relax for the rest of the day. My mom bought me the TWILIGHT soundtrack so I'm currently listening to that and I love it, I'm so excited for the movie. Okay, I love you all!

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I think I'm

getting sick :( I got home today and immediately changed into shorts and a tank top and fell asleep. I didn't wake up until 7:30 xD It was nice though. Ah, I'm started to feel like I'm getting reconnected with God and I'm loving it, it makes me feel so much better. I know He's helping me right now. Homework is frustrating me, but only because I can't get the stupid gestures for Art II right >:/ Making me a tad upset. This weekend, I want to have plans! I never do anymore. So, seriously, let's talk about that, keep me busy ;D

I can't stop listening to Christian music now, and it's all making me cry. I'm really sensitive right now, have been for the past week. Things are getting to me easier, but this...this is in a good way.

Let's comment this, okay?

i love you all <3

I've pretty much decided

that I pity people who live for perfection. What a life. Today was all right. I'm really tired of school though, like seriously sick of it. I get so stressed out just getting dressed in the morning, knowing that's where I have to go. Well, I'm currently listening to 3oh!3; great shit right there. I'm not sure what exactly is happening in my life right now, I just know it's taking some sort of turn. Whether it's a good or bad one, I haven't figured out yet. I've been wanting to do a blog forever but was always too afriad to share things with people. Oh well, I'm at the point where I just want to get things out, I don't care who reads them anymore. I'm procrastinating on homework and despising school :) How was everyone elses day? Hope it was good.

off x