It's written all over the place

I want an amazing summer. I want to remember all of it. I want to shake off the pain of this past year, forget it all for two months. I want to have fun. I want to be with people, always.

Let's make like 8,000 plans, starting now !

I think I'm going to hang out with Austin and Arrie Friday, possibly Hooly too.

MAKE MOAR PLANS PLZ.

These past 2 days, I haven't even gotten dressed xD it's pathetic, I've simply lazed around, doing like nothing.

Across the Universe just came on. I don't like this movie :( That blonde chick has too deep of a voice. And the asian is funny looking.

Okay, text me, seriously ! Comment if you need my number :D

<3 Oh. And I love my mother to death, but sometimes I wish she wouldn't come talk to me about EVERYTHING. Like the fact that my dad argues with her over financial issues, or that my brother isn't being promoted to seventh grade. Why does she feel the need to call and check up on me throughout the day, only to then add before she hangs up, these little details of my family that I don't want to hear? Sometimes, I wish she left me out of that loop. It makes me hope she doesn't go telling my dad and brother everything that goes on with me.

This song gives me the biggest chills, it's amazing. If you've never heard it, go here:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wbP0c9TZfzM

Help, I have done it again

I have been here many times before

Hurt myself again today

And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame


Be my friend

Hold me, wrap me up

Unfold me

I am small

and needy

Warm me up

And breathe me


Ouch I have lost myself again

Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,

Yeah I think that I might break

Lost myself again and I feel unsafe


Be my friend

Hold me, wrap me up

Unfold me

I am small

and needy

Warm me up

And breathe me

You're not worth the shame

You're annoying me :O you're really, honest to God, annoying me, and I don't want to talk to you. When you try to hug me, I cringe away, and you always try to get to close when you talk to me. I need you to back up. Yes, we're friends, but you for some reason I just don't want anything to do with you right now. I want you to just go away right now. You're irritating me, augh.

My mom got under my skin all day today. She didn't even do anything wrong, really, she's just always on her freaking phone. Most people get off work and are done for the night. Not my mom, no, she's still getting calls at 10pm. We went to Fresh Market after school and I swear, every single time I would turn around to say, "Hey, Mom, look at this-" she would be holding up her hand, pulling out her phone, and hurrying out the door so she could talk outside. Every time we're in the car, we like to listen to music at an unreasonably loud level, that's how my mother and I are. We scream obnoxiously to the music. But we're ALWAYS interrupted by that stupid BEEP BEEP of that freaking Nextel phone. Immediately, her hand reaches out to turn off the radio and I'm stuck there listening to her ramble on and on and on with someone from work. She sits there and makes hand motions to say that the person won't shut up, but she doesn't even try to stop the conversation, she goes on and on and freaking on.

I hate it.

Even at home, she gets out of the shower at night and BEEP BEEP. Gotta talk more. You'd think she'd at least put the phone on private so we all didn't have to hear the BEEP BEEP or squeaky chatter of the people on the other line of the walkie talkie connection.

Ugh.

I guess I just got irritated from that.

I'm really glad that tomorrow is Friday, this week went by slow for me.

Oh my God. I can't even concentrate on creating this blog post because I'm so irritated by you (from beginning of post). I want to pull my hair out and throw things across the room. Yes, I am that annoyed. Please, go away.

>:O

Well, I love you guys. Let's talk, hm?

And if I could be someone like you

Today was Colin's birthday and I'd say it went pretty well. I was feeling incredibly crappy this morning but I got better once he got here. My mom also made him this really delicious cake :D and steak for dinner was nommyyyy.

I was planning on posting my obsession story that I had to do for English, but I'm not done with it yet and I want to perfect it before I let everyone see it :)

I'm kind of ticked off. Yesterday, I guess I pulled the usb out of my iPod while it was syncing and didn't realize it. I noticed it was frozen, so I reset it, and EVERYTHING is now gone :( I really, really hate when that happens. I'm trying to save up for an iPod Touch, but it's going to take me until like July or August. Ah, man.

I also need to get my hair dyed again xD it's faded so badly. Mama thinks I should pay for it this time though, and seeing as I get twenty-five dollars every Friday, it might take me some time, since I have a hard time saving xD plus that will cut into iPod money.

Sheesh.

Ever have it where like something happens and you convince yourself of an outcome or a reason for that happening? And like, you really tell yourself it's the one thing, but then you want to share that opinion with someone else. Only, you subconsciously know that they're going to make you feel stupid or second guess what you're thinking, so you don't want to share with them. You think you'll just get disappointed or annoyed once they share what they think. I get that with my mom a lot. I finally shared the HAPPENING with her today, though, to see what her thoughts were, and found out I was exactly right. She was so sure of her response too, that I wish I never would have asked her.

Although, I sometimes thinks my mom tells me one thing because she doesn't want to share her honest opinion. Then later down the road she says, "I thought that too, but I didn't want to scare you." or something along those lines. I really hate that.

I also hate not knowing things. I wish life wasn't so full of maybes sometimes. I wish we could just get a straight answer on certain things. Though, I guess that would defeat some of our purpose of waiting and learning.

Oh well.

Thought of the Day:
I think I want things a little too much.