Hold tight the night's air and breathe again

So school isn't that bad , so far. I just feel like I never see anyone ? Like at today's class meeting , it was the first time I saw about 80% of our class. Seriously , anyone else getting this ? I feel like I only ever see Nitty :P

I absolutely love my academy though , Health Sciences class is really interesting and probably my favorite class :D plus , the scrubs are so comfy.

So that anxiety thing... I finally went to the doctor for it and he recommended I get counseling. I have an appointment for that now , whoohoo. I got all my blood work done , too. Oh , I also had my first ever panic attack in school yesterday , that was fun.

>:(

I have to try so hard this year because I'm really close to being on the 'kick out' list of the school. I just want to erase the past two years so bad.

I still feel like people are weird right now. Oh well.

Nittywood and Grace's birthdays tomorrow ?! HOOOORAYYYY :D Lucky to have a birthday on FRIDAY. I think mine's on a Wednesday this year :P

<33333 I love you guys.

P.S. I miss you. Talk to me. Please.

How is that a dog toy?

The weekend has been going wonderfully so far. After school yesterday, I went home with Austin and we complained about little kids xD cause his seven year old sister had a birthday party with like 5 other little girls over. Man. I forgot how loud 7 year old girls can scream :O

But it was a fun night :D I played Gears of War 2 with his brother, Trace, and we walked down to the dock and ran from blind mosquitoes, and computered, and FML'd, and broke a mirror, and painted, and took a walk, and ate pizza.

The best part though, was when we tried to go to sleep xD Colin, Austin, and me, all squished into Austin's bed. Colin kept farting. Austin and I were so loud, we annoyed Colin to the point where he went out and slept on the couch in the back room. That was at like 2:30, and Austin and I stayed up talking and laughing and being retarted for about 2 more hours. YEEEEH :D And today Colin said he was on the couch and was like WTF cause he could still hear us through the walls xD and we were apparently being louuud :P

It was a blasty blast.

Now, I'm at Colin's and he's naked :O jk he has a towel on. And we're going to go out on the boat and pick up Austin on it :D then ride around for awhile, then go to my house so I can shower and get cleeaaan and then dunno, until ELLEN BOO'S PARTY TONIGHT :D

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Let's text, babes.
352.551.3606

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Happy Birthday, Allyson <3

OM NOM! I turned 15 today, voila. It was pretty good but I was sad that Nitty wasn't at school :( AFTER SCHOOL THOUGH! Colin picked me up (<33333) and we hung out and were all romantic :p until we went out to Red Lobster with my parents, brother, and grandpa. YUM. They sang me happy birthday YAY and I got cake :)

I loooooove Colin Austin Shaw <3 and I miss him a lot right now even though I saw him like an hour ago xD He's amazing and definitely made my birthday great :D I can't wait to see him again.

ALSO THANKS FOR PEOPLE WHO GOT ME CARDZ! I LOVE YOU <3 and myspace comments, *gazm*, they make me SMILE SO BIG LIKE :D

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Lovelies;

Hey! :D Jesus le gusta :p Okay so I woke up feeling very sick and negative and immediately, I asked God to give me the strength to get through the day and I made it just fine :) People were annoying today, but I was able to just smile and move on and that felt great. After school, I went out and bought a bible so I'm proud of myself for that :D I also bought a brand spankin' new journal for English II, the extra credit thing. YAY! Journaling at home for extra credit? That's heaven. I'm pretty sure I'm getting my new phone soon, except I saw a new one I might want :P So now I'm comparing them; The Instinct and Blackberry Curve. Uh ohhhh. I missed Nitty today cause he's a retard and stayed home :( Business is no fun without him. Hmph. I'm still so sick, after I got home from Barnes and Noble, I fell asleep and slept for about 2 hours xD I'm still tired. On the bright side! I wrote a poem today in English that I really like :)

I think I'm going to stop missing you. I think you pushed me to the point where I'd rather not talk to you than feel the hurt. I tried talking to you and getting myself back into your life but I guess you can't push these things. I don't think I'm overreacting, I know I'm not. I love you and you decided to push me away for whatever reason. I guess all I can do is remain friendly, but I'm going to stop trying to getting to you because it's just hurting me too badly, it really is, more than you know.

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