Tuesday, January 26, 2010

You never do what you're told

I'm having another one of those self-hate days, which hasn't happened in awhile. I spent an hour cleaning and blasting music as loud as I could to try to drown out my thoughts. I feel like I screwed up something and I'm really hoping I didn't.

I don't have much to say today. My parents splitting is taking a huge toll on me. I love that they're both open with me but I sometimes wish they didn't tell me the things that were going on. I hate it when my mother calls me and tells me I need to do something a certain way or my dad will have more fuel against her, or when my dad sits there and goes on and on about how my mother is a horrible parent, yadda yadda. Then they wonder why I spend the day in my room.

i miss you <3

Wednesday, January 20, 2010


I didn't think I could be this happy. Such a short amount of time and BAM ! I love you <3 I don't know what to say, I feel like jumping around and screaming and laughing and crying and you're amazing and you make me feel like the most beautiful and important person on this planet <3 I don't care that we're far, I believe everything you've said and it will work out. Thank you for absolutely everything you have done for me. It doesn't matter what anyone else says, not at all.

Oh, by the way I have a boyfriend :) <3