I really don't like feeling fine and happy one minute and then confused/torn the next. So, I'm going to give up. I'm not even going to try anymore. I'm simply going to just go with whatever. I feel like no matter what I do, I get criticized or I make someone angry. I'm sick of thinking I've got something good going, only to become annoyed or upset. I'm so tired of feeling conflicted, I'm just smiling now. I have no idea anymore. Really, I don't. I miss things in my past so much it's ridiculous. I don't have any idea who I am right now, where I'm going, or what I want.
And I'm worrying that I stretched my ears too fast. I hope not. I'd really like to clean them right now but I'm not sure what to use. I'd ask my mom but I'm not supposed to have these gauges in the first place xD
4 months ago