We're moving forward, we're moving forward

This picture makes me smile a lot. That was such a fun day <3 I like thinking back to that time. I love James, Austin, And Kristina ;D

I had a really, really crappy day. I was dead throughout most of it, I didn't sleep well last night. At all. I got home today and I took too long of a nap. My eyes burn. My head kind of hurts. I want to curl up into a ball and hide under the covers until Summer comes. Maybe.

mg904mg0932mg302mg3gem3-t5n3205nj203b5@#U@#(%j1v24j12094j21j412j. I don't really want to talk.

A Day to Remember calms me down incredibly. They put me to sleep last night and got me through the day <33

Why's this make me so nervouuuuss?

Are you even listening when I talk to you?

"Do you even care what I'm going through
Your eyes stare and they're staring right through me
You're right there but it's like you never knew me
Do you even know how much it hurt
That you gave up on me..."

I'm feeling anti-social and it's getting worse each day. I don't want to talk to anyone, it takes so much energy just to text people. So, I'm sorry if I seem empty toward you or like I'm mad at you or something. I'm really not. I just don't feel like being all up and talkative right now. I wish I felt okay with that though. I constantly feel like people expect me to talk so much and be the person to make them laugh and say the most random, stupid things. I feel like if I'm not hyper or laughing/talking all the time, I'm disappointing people or they constantly ask me if I'm okay.

I'm alive. Not necessarily okay, but alive, and right now I just need to keep to myself. It doesn't mean I absolutely won't talk to you. You can still text me, approach me, comment me, IM me, anything. Just don't expect a long conversation, or much participation on my end. Sorry.

So we'll pretend it's all right

I don't think you have any idea how badly it frustrates me that I don't know what to expect from you anymore, or what you expect from me.

i miss nittywood.

I don't know what to do

when you irritate me like this.

Wash that mouth out, ditch those morals

I'm having a day in which I would like to destroy everything I see. I want to throw chairs at the mirrors, shove the televisions out the window, and rip up every scrap of paper. I want to throw plates at the walls and knock over china cabinets. I want to kick and punch at all of the doors until they break down.

Then I want to lie amongst it all.

Today was weird. It was awkward and frustrating and everything felt all wrong. Colin and I went and saw Watchmen at 2pm (and it feels strange going to a movie theater that early) and it sucked xD in my opinion, at least. I hated it. There was too much nudity/sex and the whole thing was just confusing. Oh well.

But I've been on edge all day. I'm tired and sad and just irritated in general. So, I really don't have much to say other than that.

Saturday was good though because my parents, grandpa, Colin, and I went to see Blue Man Group. It was hilarious; so interactive, so much fun :D

My grandpa was even pulled up on stage at one point xD xD

<3

Random Facts:
- I daydream too much.
- Like Grace, I mostly use lyrics as my blog titles. I didn't always used to, but they always are now.


Leave some thoughts.

She is still fresh in my mind

I had an odd day and to be honest, I didn't come out of it with as many thoughts as I did yesterday. So sorry, there won't be much today. I had a bad night.

How about a bunch of pictures?






Well, not a bunch but :/

Sorry, guys, I'm just not feeling it today.

Goodnight.

By the way,

You're a selfish, conceited, self-centered, egotistical asshole.
The whole world does not revolve around you.





kthxbai.

And a cry of ecstasy tore from her ribs

I'm only a little, tiny, kind of, sort of, maybe scared to death.
Hm :/
But that's okay, because I have faith and I have strength.
Right?
Right.

I see you smile in the stars

Oh, I'm quite the mess but I confess
This is ruining my day
I stop to think, over think
Analyze every single way
That you'd be here, here with me
And I'd be holding you so tight
And we'd sit, on the lawn
Watching stars as they fly by
Make a wish, kiss the sky
Your heartbeat, for mine
With our souls intertwined
I'd want to lather you in love
Smother you with light
But I look, simply watch
As my angel takes to flight

<3 :/ ?