Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Are you even listening when I talk to you?

"Do you even care what I'm going through

Your eyes stare and they're staring right through me
You're right there but it's like you never knew me
Do you even know how much it hurt
That you gave up on me...

I'm feeling anti-social and it's getting worse each day. I don't want to talk to anyone, it takes so much energy just to text people. So, I'm sorry if I seem empty toward you or like I'm mad at you or something. I'm really not. I just don't feel like being all up and talkative right now. I wish I felt okay with that though. I constantly feel like people expect me to talk so much and be the person to make them laugh and say the most random, stupid things. I feel like if I'm not hyper or laughing/talking all the time, I'm disappointing people or they constantly ask me if I'm okay.

I'm alive. Not necessarily okay, but alive, and right now I just need to keep to myself. It doesn't mean I absolutely won't talk to you. You can still text me, approach me, comment me, IM me, anything. Just don't expect a long conversation, or much participation on my end. Sorry.


Allie wag said...

(reply to your comment on my blog)

absolutely <3 it's definitely alright ( =

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