Sunday, April 12, 2009

Got scars from dirty scratches, scabs and ashes

I could sit here and complain about how frustrated I am, but frankly, I'm sick of it.

I really, really want to give up.

I want to move somewhere completely different and start all over again.

I feel like I have a constant mental block that's keeping me from things. I can't think straight, I can't process things correctly, I'm forgetting simple things, like SPELLINGS of words. It's so aggravating that I can't even put it into words. I don't know what to do about it.

Please take me so far away from here.

I need. A break. Now.

On Wednesday night, I cried harder than I ever, EVER have in my entire life. I think now I'm ready to scream until my throat turns raw.


17 comments:

love, Grace. said...

I read an old Post Secret card a couple days ago.
It said "Everyone I knew before 9/11 thinks I'm dead."
Don't you wish you could disappear and start over like that? (Without the bunches of people dying, of course.)

allywood said...

Yeah, sometimes it seems like that would just be so nice.

The only thing is I fear that you'd eventually feel so much pain from leaving behind the few people who really cared.

NittyWood said...

:( <3

allywood said...

<3

Hooly said...

<3.

allywood said...

<3

DannyPhantom said...

wow. it's exactly how I feel. though I don't think going to LHS next year is going to help much. I love you ally. <3

allywood said...

I love you too, Daniel <3
And boo :( I'm gon miss your hugs.

FaexLOVE said...

Hey, can I come with you?
I want to move to Sarasota and get away from everyone here :[
I want to get away from Lake county in general. I don't hate florida like you do, I just hate lake county, sumter, and all the surrounding area near me.
I can't wait until high school is finally over and done with.

143<3

allywood said...

Yes, you certainly can come with. I think we all should just back a backpack full of the most important things, get in a car and drive, drive, drive.

<3

If only, right?

allywood said...

And I meant pack, not back.

FaexLOVE said...

Yeah, I freaking wish.
I seriously want to be home schooled so I can finish high school sooner.
But I don't want to miss prom and crap like that "/

allywood said...

Yeah, it's hard to weigh the pros and cons of leaving.

I'm not really sure which would win.

FaexLOVE said...

God. I hate being stuck in high school.
]:<

allywood said...

You and me both.

FaexLOVE said...

<3

allywood said...

<3