Hold tight the night's air and breathe again

So school isn't that bad , so far. I just feel like I never see anyone ? Like at today's class meeting , it was the first time I saw about 80% of our class. Seriously , anyone else getting this ? I feel like I only ever see Nitty :P

I absolutely love my academy though , Health Sciences class is really interesting and probably my favorite class :D plus , the scrubs are so comfy.

So that anxiety thing... I finally went to the doctor for it and he recommended I get counseling. I have an appointment for that now , whoohoo. I got all my blood work done , too. Oh , I also had my first ever panic attack in school yesterday , that was fun.

>:(

I have to try so hard this year because I'm really close to being on the 'kick out' list of the school. I just want to erase the past two years so bad.

I still feel like people are weird right now. Oh well.

Nittywood and Grace's birthdays tomorrow ?! HOOOORAYYYY :D Lucky to have a birthday on FRIDAY. I think mine's on a Wednesday this year :P

<33333 I love you guys.

P.S. I miss you. Talk to me. Please.

I want to feel it in my bones

Have you ever had an emotional pain that hit you hard and killed you for a few days? And then when it comes back, it hurts and hurts, but for some reason you welcome it? For reasons you don't know? But then it gets to the point where it comes back so often that you almost feel sick because of it and you're tired of it? But then you feel like you shouldn't be tired of it?

I don't know, I'm rambling.

I'm dreading school tomorrow. Why? It's like nothing.

How is it that I just had an amazing day with Hooly and Arrie, and I feel like I could curl up in a ball and cry my eyes out?

I feel like I have so much pent up frustration, numbness, anger, and like I want to fix everything, but I don't have the time to. Like, accepting what happened, forgiving people, all of it will take a lifetime.

:(

I think I'm going to go to bed.

Got five fingers on each hand for every mistake that I've made

ArrieWag, you make my mornings 8,000x better than they are supposed to be and I love you <3

NittyWood, you're my best friend and I love you lots and I gon go to your house tomorrow and we gon go see Arrie? <3

I'm really glad that it's almost the weekend. It seems like since this is the last month of school, it's going by super slow. Am I the only one who feels that way? Sigh. I want to write a lot, and I keep getting story ideas, but I never have the time to write them down. Bigger sigh.

I want to text moar people ! If you text... and you've never texted me... that's a problem, let's make it happen :D !
Gimme yo numba, baby ;D

<33 I'm in a good mood, but I can't stop talking in a British accent.

AND KUBIK AFTER SCHOOL, LAWL. Austin and I were staring at him through the window on his door and he hid under his desk and kept randomly popping up. So we started hiding under the window and popping up. So he got some random giant stick and taped a picture of a squirrel to it and kept making IT pop up. It was so funny :D

I hope you guys had good days. But srsly, the texting thing :D

I LOVE YOU :D

Are you even listening when I talk to you?

"Do you even care what I'm going through
Your eyes stare and they're staring right through me
You're right there but it's like you never knew me
Do you even know how much it hurt
That you gave up on me..."

I'm feeling anti-social and it's getting worse each day. I don't want to talk to anyone, it takes so much energy just to text people. So, I'm sorry if I seem empty toward you or like I'm mad at you or something. I'm really not. I just don't feel like being all up and talkative right now. I wish I felt okay with that though. I constantly feel like people expect me to talk so much and be the person to make them laugh and say the most random, stupid things. I feel like if I'm not hyper or laughing/talking all the time, I'm disappointing people or they constantly ask me if I'm okay.

I'm alive. Not necessarily okay, but alive, and right now I just need to keep to myself. It doesn't mean I absolutely won't talk to you. You can still text me, approach me, comment me, IM me, anything. Just don't expect a long conversation, or much participation on my end. Sorry.

For the times we both apologize for

Today was the first day that I was able to not take school seriously. I usually feel really guilty about it or get stressed out, but for today, it was just okay.

I love my church. It gives me a lot of hope and optimism. I love working with the little kids there and am amazed by how they can sit and chat with you seriously about the bible and how Jesus is their best friend.

However, I'm torn with the fact that it seems half of me is willing to put forth the effort into transforming myself and the other half is just so angry at the world. I have so much pent up frustration towards people, events, things. I want to be able to get over that.

I'd also like to be able to get rid of this mental block I have.

I want to be happy. I want more than anything to be able to accept MYSELF. I want to get to the point where I can ignore what other people say and just live the way I want to live.

I'm so consumed with frustration with everything and I really want to get rid of it.

And you know, I can't help but feel like we're getting nowhere. I feel like I tried to help you through something (though I don't know for certain if it was really as bad as it seemed or not) and even though I was ignored by you and pushed away by you, I continued to try my hardest to help you and get to you, even though it was physically exhausting to me, because of everything we ever promised each other. And after we talked and said we'd fix things, I'm probably having the hardest struggle in my life and I feel like you aren't there, or more so like I can't go to you. Even when I do and you give me advice, it's not the same, at all. I don't read your words the same way I used to. I feel like you're just automatically feeding me something to make me feel better without putting effort into it. I feel like all the "progress" I thought was happening was really nothing and it upsets me. I don't get how it seems to not affect you at all. I really don't. So really, feel free to explain to me, help me out here, I don't know what you want from me. I don't know if you are still playing this back away game. Our conversations go nowhere, they mean nothing. I need you right now. I don't know what you're going through, how your life is right now, or anything, because you don't share this with me anymore, but I still thought you could be there for me. I was for you. Am I being too dramatic here? Just let me know if I am.

thoughts x

Until the day I die, I'll spill my heart for you

Finally going back to school tomorrow :P I've been out the entire week with bronchitis, it's pretty much lame. I swear, one of the worst feelings in the world is not being able to breathe through a throat full of mucus xD

Anyway o.O

I've been playing Pokemon Platinum all week and I have to say that it seriously owns. It's actually quite different from Diamond and Pearl, more so than I expected, so that's good. I wasn't one of the people worried that it was going to be a deja vu of Ruby/Emerald/Sapphire, but I know a lot of people were saying that. So, ha :P

Other than that, my week has been boring. Except on Wednesday, Lucy drove over here (in a car 8,000 times too big for her :P) and we hung out for a bit, so it was really cool :) we caught up on a lot of stuff and just had fun. And we swear, the air around us like farted AXE. It was amazing. Although I did feel like the lamest kid alive for not being at the ADTR, TDWP, SEA, Emarosa concert :(

I can't even imagine the make up work I'm going to have D:

Oh, and am I the only one who gets pissed off when their parents schedule a teacher/guidance meeting without telling/asking you?!

>:|

My dad, today, was like:

"How are your grades?"
"Okay, I guess."
"Really? Cause I talked to your guidance counselor..."
"...uh-huh."
"Yeah. She says you're not doing too well in history."
*stares*
"So I made a meeting with her, it's tomorrow."
"Thanks."
"Yeah. You're going to miss lunch though, so I'll bring you Subway."
"Great."
"Good" *smiles* "I'll be back later." *leaves*

Ugh.

And, I HATE not doing things on Fridays, and so I always get upset when Colin dearest has to work on those days. He's not working tomorrow. He's going to Busch Gardens >:| so I'm home with the family. Ay yi yi. I haven't seem him since last Saturday :O

I really have no central point to this blog, I just feel guilty for like abandoning BlogSpot for awhile xD save my short post yesterday. Bad night xD

I just sneezed, bless me.

I'm strange, goodnight ;D

<3

So cling to what you know, and never let go

So my mom had me take a 'mental health day' because I had a bad night yesterday. I basically threw a giant fit and had this little panic attack and stuff. But seriously, it's mainly about school. I am soooo over it, so sick of it.

Business is pretty much a no-brainer. I can deal just fine in that class with an A.

AP World History doesn't even make it in one ear and out the other, I'm pretty sure none of it makes it in at all. I could do these notes every single week, color all these maps, and write all these essays and not tell you a damn thing that I learned. I can't remember any of it. Pretty sure I'm currently failing that class, with like 10 missing assignments.

English. Okay, seriously, we do nothing.

Geometry is too easy because I'm not even supposed to be in there. I wish this stupid school wasn't so stupid and I was able to take Algebra II like I was supposed to.

Science. Again, I'm not supposed to be in the class I'm in. I was in Bio Honors last year and then I get put into Integrated this year simply because they didn't know where else to put me and the Vice Principal said I couldn't take Chem unless I was taking Algebra II. Even though I know people who are taking Chem and Geometry together. At least I have a good grade in there, though. I just fall asleep a lot and have no one to talk to.

Art is lovely.

Spanish II annoys me and I want to kill it because I don't want to take spanish at all. I think I have a D or F in there because I never get work in on time. Oh well.

I'm really glad that tomorrow is Friday. I did nothing all day except go through this random Tumblr account that I found because the chick has cool stuff. I want to do something fun this weekend, let's make some plans?

Talk to me <3




BTDub, check out that site ^

I don't breathe the way I used to

I had to get checked out in third period today because I was way too tired xD I didn't even ask my mom to pick me up though, I just texted her saying I was exhausted and the next thing I know, I'm getting called down to the office.

I had bad luck with food today xD I tried pre-heating the oven to make some fries and started smelling burnt plastic. So I open the oven and find that Mommy dearest was hiding the leftovers of Colin's birthday cake in the oven. So it's EVERYWHERE and there's a mini fire that keeps sparking around the melted icing and I'm freaking out and calling my mom and trying to pour water on it and xD it sucked. So then Mama comes home, cleans up and stuff, then puts the fries in the toaster oven for me. I forget about them. I walk into the kitchen about an hour later and it's FULL of smoke, fries are black as night and I'm just like xD man, wtf, I'm apparently destined to not eat these fries.

It was weird. I finally got some made safely, though :)

I've been listening to nevershoutnever and eatmewhileimhot the entire time that I've been home. They make me so happy <33

My mom said if I can show some real effort in school and pick grades up, I can get a job :) one of her friends at work has his own business with his wife and said he could get me hired there :D so I'm going to try really hard. It would only be a few hours because I'm only 15, but it's still something.

Today was relatively good though :)



<3

I need to finish a lot of homework, though. I love you guys. Oh, by the way, publishing comments still isn't working for me for some reason :( but I would be commenting everyone if I could. I'm still reading though :D so just know.

<33 !!

I am a vampire, I am a vampire

Today was only slightly stressful. I actually woke up in a ridiculously good mood, which is incredibly rare. Nick and I got to sit outside at lunch together and have some good talk time, which is nice, we got to catch up on our lives a bit. Colin just had to drag me to Lenscrafters in Ocala after school, though xD I don't like crowds of people.

However, the big bomb of overwhelming feelings hit me once we got home and it was 'homework time'. I ended up pretty much just STARING at my homework and not getting anything done. I didn't actually START it until after Colin left, around 9:10. Yeah, but then I did get some done and my parents were really helpful.

I'm rather exhausted right now, so I don't have much to say. However! I was so stressed out last night that I cleaned my entire room and didn't finish until around 1:30 am :)

Yay.

<333

I was just trying to make a sammich

I had a really good afternoon. I went to the Art Club meeting and it should be a lot of fun. Next, I had a blast with Shar, Hooly, and Kelsey making fun of things on Hooly's iPod Touch, lmao. Then, I went to Curves with Shar and her mommy. Then Subway! Now I'm home and full and I have a ton of homework. Blah. I'm excited about tomorrow though :) tomorrow should be good, realllll good.

I feel kind of sick though. It's really warm in this house.

So tonight, I'm going to finish my homework and then I have some writing to do ;D I wish I could move, I hate where I live right now. Oh well, all in due time, I suppose.

Goodbye for now <3

Taste the rainbow

I'm pretty tired of being sick. Sore throats get old fast fast fast. Today was another boring day, except Brandon just had to be home sick too. That's just annoying :/

Still, I miraculously had time to think between him begging me to make him food, and me swallowing to Chloroseptic (sp?). I feel refreshed after last night. Something just made me feel better and I was more optimistic and determined to fix things.

I'm not going to lose touch with you either :) so don't even try, k?

I'm pretty sure that I'm going back to school tomorrow and maybe hanging out with Colin? Cooool. I really want to do something fun this weekend though. I miss hanging out with people.

Tomorrow will be a good day, I say so.

By the way, in case anyone cares, I have faith in myself now.

I know something you don't know

I'm busy trying to compare to possibilities. There are valid points to each one, but neither are really screaming out at me yet. For now, I'm just going to stay calm and take care of myself. I'm really proud of myself for my midterm grades. No, they aren't perfect, but I tried really hard to earn them.

Business - 85
AP World History - 84 (Thank God for that curve)
English II - 82 (Without writing grade yet)
Geometry - 84
Science - Don't know yet
Art II - 89
Spanish II - 70

So really, since I missed 10 days of school, the rule is I had to get 75% on every exam. Now, I'm pretty sure I did great on science, but Spanish was a problem. Sra. Hubbard says she thinks what they'll do is just give me a 59 for the semester :( So that will suck but I'm determined to keep A's this semester. I feel motivated and full of confidence, so I can do it :D

Well, mom's here, off to get new school stuff (:

LEAVE SOME LOVIN' !

Hello, Dear

Friday's concert at HOB was pretty dang good :) We the Kings and The Academy Is... were all right, seeing as I don't like them too much. Fall Out Boy, however, was amazing. For my first concert ever, I was really satisfied :D Except until Colin and Julian decided to join a mosh pit xD

Afterward, we went to the Virgin store and Nitty bought a Fight Club poster :p I wanted to get something Hello Kitty but I was too tired xD I definitely fell asleep on the ride home, leaning on Colin. Pretty sure Hooly fell asleep leaning on me too, haha.

Saturday was a lame day, I slept most of it and ended up making my mom mad :/ but church made up for it. I really admire the pastor there. He has a brain tumor and as he's up there talking to us, he tells us he has double vision and how "currently there are about 3,000 of you out there." yet he still smiles and put all of his heart into his work. God definitely has him.

I'm really moody right now, more so than usual. Isn't PMS great? Ugh. My back hurts from putting up the Christmas tree and for some reason I feel like I ate way too much food today. Weird. I want to hurry on to Curves.

I'm both excited and sad about this being the last week of school before Christmas Break. I'm excited because, duh, no school and Christmas. I'm sad though because Colin will be gone the entire break, in North Dakota, and I don't know what I'm going to do. I hate, HATE being without him D: I can barely stand it when he goes home at night. Going from Sunday to Wednesday seems torturous enough.

I've been thinking about my future a lot lately and praying about it a lot. So here's to You, God. I need Your guidance. I want to understand these feelings and desires. Why have they not gone away and why is this something I want so bad? Why would I be willing to give up everything I had for it? It doesn't make any sense but it's consuming me and distracting me and causing problems for me. I'd really love Your help, please.

I hate homework. I hate school. I hate warm weather in winter. I hate food. I hate my messy room. I hate my remote. I hate my computer. I hate my procrastination. I hate the smell of my brother's room. I hate infections. I hate fat. I hate my hair. I hate PMS. I hate headaches. I hate frustration. I hate not understanding. I hate hating.

Forgive me

I think I let myself down a little today. I'm sorry. To myself. It would be so, so easy to take this road again, spiral down, down, down into the darkness. There's no light, no worries, and no one to bother you because you lost your care on the second stumble.

I can't go back there. I've surrounded myself with loving people, God, and good things. I can't leave it all behind just so I can be selfish and turn around again.

I have to keep going, one step after another. I need to keep my focus and make short-term goals so they don't seem so unreachable.

I know I'm smart. I am so, so smart. I just can't seem to put that intelligence into education. School still has no affect on me. I will argue with you until the end of the world about school. I could be getting A's, I could have a perfect GPA, I could be in all honors and on my way to as much AP as possible. I could be a star student, one all the teachers like to go gaga over. I could be number one in all of my classes. I could be. Instead, I don't do the homework, I half-ass tests, I never study, I don't pay any attention whatsoever, and I shrug it all off.

I hate that people then mistake me for not being smart. I hate when people try to explain things to me because they think I don't know them. I didn't know what the US Patriot Act was until Kubik told me personally. I just don't recall learning it, I was probably asleep. This doesn't make me stupid though. I have the ability, I just don't use it. I don't put forth the effort to be book smart. I concentrate more on people, psychology, relationships, life. I can't focus on education. I'm like anti-education and work. Why? I couldn't answer this question for a million dollars.

It's something that really bothers me though because I look at my closest friends and they're complaining because they have a low A. I look down at my report card and I'm barely passing the class. This kills me because I KNOW I could have a high A. I could be the one that the teacher says, "Excellent job!" to. Nope. Instead I sit there and sigh over my 33F progress report.

But I'm not stupid. I'm an old soul, I have high intelligence, and I'm so much more mature than the majority of people surrounding me. Hopefully, I'll be able to use the smart ability for something great in the future because for now I'm hurting.

God Bless <3

You shouldn't play with fire, Allyson

Well, I'm finally losing weight. That really makes me happy. It's not like I was heavy or anything, but the stress of summer and the beginning of school made me eat. I hate that habit: eating when stressed or bored. Curves three times a week is really helping and I'm getting a bit more self confidence. I want to have a toned stomach and lose a bit of flab in my thighs/arms. Soon :)

I really miss church, I need to go back. Not just want to, but need to. I'm constantly talking to God, all throughout my day. It keeps me calm and collected.

Hopefully this weekend I'll have the time to get caught up on some school work. I still really don't care about school, but I suppose it's a must...

I really want to hang out with friends more. I always have Colin :) But I want to have fun with friends,like the time Shar, Nitty, Colin and I stayed at Hooly's :D Or the paint war, or just a bunch of us going to the movies or something. 8th and 9th grade was full of that, it seems we don't do anything anymore. Maybe that will change when we can all drive? I don't know, let's just make plans!

I kind of want to change up my image. I need new clothes, I want my hair dyed more, and I need to get new makeup. I wish I could decorate my room differently, but I don't know when we're moving so...

God Bless <3

I'm fighting a headache

which is most likely from lack of sleep. I didn't go to school today. Why? Because I didn't fall asleep until 5:30am. Why? Because I was talking to you all night; literally all night. I took Melatonin, I went out on the couch, I played soothing music, I watched TV, I read, you followed me everywhere and I could not for the life of me fall asleep until early hours. My mother didn't even try to wake me up. The time went by so fast, I didn't even realize how late it was until I said goodnight to you. Then a wave of exhaustion hit me and I glanced at the clock to see 5:24am.

Mom came home at one point to try to wake me up and as she was talking to me, I could barely keep my eyes open. About 30 minutes after she left, I was starting to feel nauseous, like I usually do if I don't eat breakfast. So, I was heading into the kitchen when the nausea really kicked up. You know when that happens, your tongue feels heavy, you swallow hard, and your mouth just pools with saliva. Yeah, that feeling. I had to stand over the sink in fear that any movement towards the bathroom would result in a mess. I was finally able to slowly edge towards my bathroom and then I felt my throat tightening up and my gag reflex going into full throttle. Almost threw up everywhere! But did not. I was able to hold it in, thank God, I hate throwing up.

I guess this just means I need to really get all the sleep I can tonight. I would have gone to bed earlier but I'm texting Colin and all :) So tonight, I'll talk to you again, but only briefly. I'm sure you understand.

I'm still dreading school tomorrow. I got panicked about it last night and almost made a really bad decision. But I didn't. God's helping me, I can feel it. I think I came to find some acceptance within myself today, too. I'm proud of that.

I love you guiz <3

It was possibly

the worst day in awhile. I felt humiliated being at school with my super red eyes and worn out look. I couldn't even keep a straight face 2 minutes into being there, broke down to Kristina, which is something I haven't done in a long time. I don't know if I've ever cried at school? And if I have I was able to control it or something cause this scared me, letting people see me like that. I only wish I had gotten there earlier so I had more time to clean myself up before going to class, cause then of course I got a lot of questioning looks.

I'm incredibly exhausted, wasted a whole night last night just crying on and off. My eyes burn and my throat is sore. I've never cried a whole night in and out of sleep, and then woke up the next day and began crying again. Usually if you have a bad night, the following morning is a new day. Definitely wasn't my case. I'm sitting there trying to get my stuff together and have tears rolling down my face when my mom says, "You need to try harder. You can't fall apart at school..." and I toned her out for the rest.

I know what she was going to say. If they see you, they'll ask to talk to us, and it might lead you back into therapy and maybe you do need back on your medication after all.

School felt pointless to me today. I felt like I needed to leave and actually do something important instead of just sitting there class after class, just to tell them I didn't have the homework they were looking for. Maybe I need to go back to therapy. Maybe I need the medications again. I don't want the meds, honestly. I finally feel REAL again. My emotions are sensitive right now but I love it because when I was on the medication, I felt like a brick wall; I didn't really feel sadness. I felt happiness and anger and most other things, but sadness was rejected. I feel more complete now that I can freely feel that emotion. Watching TV with my mom last night, I cried because it was a sad episode. Months ago, on medication, I wouldn't have been able to cry no matter how hard I tried.

I could probably deal with therapy though. Maybe. As long as she wouldn't sit there and nod at me and just stare at me all the time like she used to do. On second thought, maybe that would be too much. I have this huge TO-DO list that needs a lot of crossing off. Mainly doctors appointments that I need to make... I want to be on my own right now. I want to be out of school and on toward more important things. I honestly can't shake the feeling that I'm not doing the right thing, I'm supposed to be doing SOMETHING, but I don't know what it is.

I'm driving myself crazy praying over it.

I miss you.
I miss you.
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I miss you.

Why did you leave me here?

I need to go the the dr

I feel sick, very sick. I'm worried and frustrated and I would like to know what's going on. I have so many questions. Were you right? Is that the reason everything went wrong? Why didn't I check first? Is this why nothing's working? Is this what You want me to be doing?

I think it is. I think I'm doing the right thing and that's why signs are showing up everywhere I go. I feel like everything fell right into place to say, "Hello! Do this, now." So I'm going to.

People have been easily pissing me off lately. My patience and temper is getting lower and lower. I keep taking it out on Colin and I feel really, really bad because of it D: School is the worst thing ever right now too. It's a brand new start, the beginning of the second nine weeks and I'm barely doing anything. Sleep is another thing to, I'm so not getting enough. I think falling asleep in 3 or 4 classes a day is getting old.

On the plus side, I'm so incredibly happy that it's getting cold...I love it so much :) Hoodies and skinny jeans ftw <3

I want to go on a serious shopping spree, I need new clothes so bad. I really like the Kohls they put in down in Lady Lake :) I saw Hooly and his madre there tonight when I was there with Colin. MOMORMORNING WOOD

Right now, I'd kill for a cup of hot chocolate from Ghirardelli, Colin, and a big, happy dog! All by a fire. Sigh, I hate Florida xD

I guess I just need to get through tomorrow and wait until it's Friday so that I can see Colin again <3 I love youuuu.

Goodnight.

Tuesdays

are always just as lame as Mondays. I got barely any sleep last night, didn't do any homework, and it took my mom everything she had just to get me out of bed. Yesterday was that bad. I went anyway, but it was awkward and I was in some weird mood. I finally called her to come and get me and she got there around one. From there, she took me to Steak n Shake and told me that she called the school this morning and yelled at them.

The thing is, I know it was required that I was questioned. But they kept me there for 2 and a half hours and pressed way too deep into my private life. They asked me questions they had no right to ask me, that had nothing to do with the issue, then criticized me on the choices I've made this past year. Not only did they attack me, but they constantly attacked my mother too, saying things like, "Well if I was your mother..." or "That wasn't smart of your mother..." and "I sure wouldn't allow that in MY house."

So I told my mom this, because God, that offended me. So she called today and talked to one of the ladies and complained for like a good 20 minutes. The lady she called though, I was okay with. It was the other one >:/ So my mom's going to call HER tomorrow. The one she talked to today apologized and said she knew the other lady was pushing where she wasn't welcome, but she didn't want to interrupt.

So basically, I should have only been in that office for at most 30 minutes, but no, 150 minutes sounded better. By the end, I'm pretty sure I cried enough to make up for the past month.

ANYWAYANYWAY; I don't want to go back tomorrow either. I feel like they know everything now and I hate that feeling. But at the same time I learned that I just can't trust anyone right now, I guess.

I'm sorry if you're mad at me.

Hopefully Wednesdays aren't as lame as Tuesdays and Mondays xD should be better since Colin is picking me up like always <3 Bah.

I wish it was Subway Friday or something, I want the weekend back.

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WORST DAY EVAR! >:O

Yeah, today sucked "donkey kong balls" in the words of Razzle. Waking up seemed like a mistake. Was late, got a detention since it was my 4th one. Fucking hell, if I'm going to get a detention, I'd at least want it to be for something hardcore.

"What are you in detention for?"
"I was late for school 4 times...how about you?"
"I KILLED SOMEONE RAWR!"

Yeah, see. Like, a really hardcore, messy paint fight, right, Shurr? ;D late for 4 days in all of the school year so far. No srsly, i hate that school so much D:

So in Business I realize I left my AP World History notes at home, which took me up until 2am to do! *insert rude word*

Then the rest of the day was shot to hell. Like, I can't even explain it. Got out of geometry and science though, ftw? I suppose.

Didn't really eat lunch, except for fries.

I don't think I did too great on my spanish II test either. Cultura always, always gets me. And the question words like cual and cuantos and crap.

Then Brandon decided to be sick so when Mom picked me up, I had to sit in the car while we drove to Leesburg for the doctor to tell him he has a pretty bad cold. Thanks, doc. I can't stand to listen to the kid talk, holy shit xD I hate that mucusy breathing, right MICHAEL?!

Anywhore; I learned today that I just can't trust people. I'll just keep things to myself now thanks.

I secretly hope Brandon like sneezes all over my pillow so I catch his grossness. School tomorrow? Not sounding so great.

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