Tuesday, January 26, 2010

You never do what you're told

I'm having another one of those self-hate days, which hasn't happened in awhile. I spent an hour cleaning and blasting music as loud as I could to try to drown out my thoughts. I feel like I screwed up something and I'm really hoping I didn't.

I don't have much to say today. My parents splitting is taking a huge toll on me. I love that they're both open with me but I sometimes wish they didn't tell me the things that were going on. I hate it when my mother calls me and tells me I need to do something a certain way or my dad will have more fuel against her, or when my dad sits there and goes on and on about how my mother is a horrible parent, yadda yadda. Then they wonder why I spend the day in my room.

i miss you <3

6 comments:

Anonymously Me said...

Aw my parents got divorced too, when I was in junior high. The whole one parent blaming the other parent thing never really stops. It pretty much sucks. But we'll get through it, don't worry.

GraceEstelle said...

I love you.
If you ever need to talk, I'm here. <3

Hooly said...

I didn't know your parents were splitting, I'm so sorry D: I miss you like it's nobody's goddamn business, and I love you.<3

Trixie said...

Hang in there. Your not alone! Keep your head up and spirits high even when the weight of the world is being put onto your shoulders.

Anonymous said...

I miss you.

Allie wag said...

i love you so much.