It's been so long since I have shed any tears over you. I reached the point of acceptance and since then, it's just sort of been okay. Tonight, though, I can't get you off my mind. Most of the same thoughts I used to have, but new ones too. No matter how long it has been, or how accepting I am now, it's always going to be brought up, and it's never going to leave me. I still have the utmost faith in the fact that it was meant to happen, I just miss you so much tonight. I think of what I would be doing if you were here with me, then I have to stop myself because the pain is too much.
I'm sure I'll be okay in the morning, but for right now, I think I'll set myself into deep unconsciousness and pretend I've got you here. I'll always love you.
Goodnight, my dear <3
4 months ago