I have nothing to say

Other than the fact that I can't stand feeling like I'm doing good with my life, and then being shot down. I never land on my feet, I stumble and struggle and it takes me a long time to get back up again.



I hate this.


I love you.
I miss you.
I don't want to talk to you.
I feel hurt by you.
I want to know you.
I want to forget you.
I want to hold you.
I want to shake you out of who you've become.
I want to run away with you.
I want to scream at you.
I can't stand you.
I want to care for you.
I wish I could ignore you.
I know I shouldn't feel any of this.