If I may add my input here...

I kind of think the whole ordeal is sad. I'm thoroughly disappointed. I thought all of us blogspot people had this little weird connection because we shared our deepest thoughts, frustrations, and hopes with each other, without so much as speaking one word to each other in school. It upsets me to see how quickly we all claw at each other's throats :/

I think it all should just be forgotten. I agree with Kristina in the way that with your blog, you shouldn't have to be afraid of what you say. It's WHERE you vent. We vent about our families, teachers, friends, and then give each other support and say we love each other. Then someone says something that we feel is directed towards US and not other people, so we get defensive and immediately start arguing and say really rude things.

I don't like it and I don't think that's very fair.

I almost feel like maybe I should be more careful with what I post now, for I surely don't want to cause so many people to get angry.

I'm not, at all, trying to start another episode over on my blog now. Please, don't get that idea. My whole purpose of this post is to try to get everyone to calm down, think rationally, forgive, and forget.

We all can say things out of frustration. I think as 'friends' we should accept that about each other. Even if you don't agree with it. I know every single one of you has at one point said something I didn't agree with. I never bashed you out. I only think of positive things to tell everyone.

Can we get over this? Please? I don't like it and frankly, it does make me sad :(

I feel like a failure

I hate the feeling that I've let you down. Please forgive me. Maybe I'm not trying hard enough... I know I'm not. Why am I lying to myself so much? Why am I resorting back to old thoughts and ways. I feel like giving up, I really do. I tried really hard for awhile and it's getting me NOWHERE. I can't concetrate and I'm screwing myself up. Yes, this post will likely be full of self pity and I don't care. People are pissing me off so easily now and I don't want to be around them at all. Getting out of bed each morning is becoming more of a chore, like it used to be. I feel like my reasons for living have either left me, or are losing faith in me. I guess I really need God's help to heal past wounds and lead me down the right path because as of right now I kinda want to smoke my life up.

I'm beyond sorry. I never want to fight with you again. The feeling I was left with made me feel so sick, knowing you were upset. I love you.

Yeah, I'm kind of giving up on you. I gave you several chances to change your mind. I have more important people to care for now. Have fun with your 'friends'

I'm so incredibly happy that we are able to push our past aside and get along so well. It's great to know you're always there and you make my days burst with sunshine!

I still miss you. A lot. Where ARE you? Please try to contact me? I feel too pushy when it's me trying.

I love you and I miss you everyday, angel.


On the plus side, Obama won, yay yay yay! Goodnight, comment, whatever <3