I have no idea who I am.

To put my arms in fragile hands

What's wrong with you ? Why can't you just go for it , take what you want , be strong ? Why are you playing these games , constantly pulling people one way , pushing others another way. You're completely out of your mind , you say you're a good person , but people don't know how you really are. You're never satisfied , you can't just let things lie , you have to push for more and more. You can't make up your mind , your thoughts are horrible , and you play sick games with people. You lie , you cheat , you put up so many masks it's unbelievable. You'll easily pick an argument with someone you supposedly love. You're obsessive , you don't think before you speak , and you're ridiculous. You want what you can't have and you won't let that go. You'll push for it until the end of the world and you have no right to. You won't leave people alone , you just have to keep going until you get to the edge , and then you pause before you push some more. You're sick.

I really wanted

to see you tonight :(

>:(

You're irritating me so badly. I swear , we've been through this before , talked about it before. I want to just YELL at you until you get everything I'm saying through your head. Every time I confront you about it , you start doing something else or act like you aren't listening , or like you don't even care.

You're really , really dancing on my last nerve. Be careful or you WILL lose me.

Jeronimo !

I can't believe I actually started playing WoW :P nuts. So lately I've been outtawhackawhack ! Like , with sleep. I'm up until the sun comes up or a little later , I fall asleep , I either wake up at like 8 or 9 , or 4pm XP I don't mind it too much , but mama doesn't appreciate it , lawl.

My brother is like 10 times worse though ! He'll stay up until 7 , sleep until 5 , stay up until 6 , sleep until 4 , and believe me , he is IMPOSSIBLE to wake up.

:) so Nittywood was supposed to come over today but he didn't :( I reallllly want to hang out with people. I wish I had a car. Or a license. Or a permit xD

I'll work on that.

Charlie Sheen makes me lol.

You know what I love ? 7:20am voicemails <3 srsly , the mega shiz.

Ah man , I'm tired XP

Nothing else is really going on right now , just day after day of getting up late , being lazy , playing videogames , and that's about it :) but yes , let's make plans for something.

HOOLY ARE YOU UNGROUDED , YET ?! YOU BETTER BE.

<3

Harper's Island

Raise your hand if you watch Harper's Island !

Oh my goodness , I love that show so much it's unbelievable. It's SO hard to figure out and all full of blood and murder and mystery and BAM !

Harper Spam:


So in case you don't watch it, it's about this girl named Abby Mills who used to live on Harper's Island. When she was like 18 or something, a man named John Wakefield murdered 7 people on the the island, one being her mother. He strung them up in a tree that the people now call the Tree of Woe. Abby's father was so upset that he sent her away. Seven years later, she comes back for her best friend Henry's wedding to the girl of his dreams, Trish Wellington. The wedding was supposed to be a big party that lasted a week and then the wedding was to be on the last day or so. However, guests start disappearing and they soon find out it's murders and there's this whooooole plot and one or two or three people die each episode and you have to find out who it is :D !

It's really an edge-of-your-seat kind of thing and it's SO hard to figure out what is happening.



Okay , let's chat <3

I've got to find my life

I feel like I should be so incredibly sorry. For everything , for nothing , I'm not even sure. And I find I'm repeating myself with that , so many I-don't-knows. I suppose I'm just in transition , I feel like I'm changing , I feel like everything is shifting. It just feels weird. I want to grab onto so many things and fix things and just make it all work.

I feel like I need to stretch , I'm so tense , I'm so frustrated , I almost feel like I just need that breakdown to start fresh again. Like I need to just explode , cry , scream , everything , and then relax and figure things out.

I feel like I'm doing a really bad job at being myself. Everything is strange and I hate it.

It's like halfway through June and I've done barely anything. I want(ed) an amazing summer , can we please make it happen ?

And I'm infinitely sorry. For everything.