I'm desperate to know how you are

I hope you're deep asleep.

Today was okay. It was decent. FCAT seemed hard to me and that made me panic because this stuff is supposed to come easily to me. I'm not supposed to skip 3 or 4 problems to go back to at the end. I'm supposed to be able to think about it for a little, then get an answer. I felt like I was guessing on so much and when everyone around me said they thought it was easy, I began to feel like an epic pile of crap.

It was wicked hot all day too xD but I couldn't take off my hoodie because I was wearing a Transformers shirt (:P) instead of a school one. Stupid teachers for wanting to take their stupid classes outside in the stupid Florida March weather. Even during the FCAT, though, I could feel my skin getting all itchy and clammy from sweat, my sleeves pulled up as high as they would go. I kept looking around (inconspicuously) and everyone else seemed to be fine. Nao, I'm in the living room and have every fan in the house on high :)

So I was skimming through a book today that I just got from the library. I'm going to return it because it's weird, but the style of writing made me want to write, so I think I'm going to do that right after this: just write until I can't any longer <3

Let's talk,


Random Facts:
- I am in love with Publix brand peach tea. I take it to school in coffee cups. So in the mornings, I'm never drinking coffee, it's secretly just peach tea from Publix ;D
- I am an insanely, irrationally jealous person.

We fall beneath the sea in the back of our hearts.

and fail to breathe until we resurface again.

So today wasn't all that bad. FCAT was super easy (but the Reading always is), it's the Math I'm worried about xD so I'm really not looking forward to tomorrow. Hey, at least it's almost over right?

I love you. I love how we continue to make each other laugh more and more, each and every day that we are together. I love how we act like complete idiots around each other and never regret a thing. I'm completely comfortable around you and I can tell you are with me as well. I love those days where we get that little spark and feel even closer to each other than we did before. I love you, I really do. You're the only person who can be lying down with me, spit water in my face, and have me laugh.

My eyes burn. I think Colin got me sick :p

Okay, who's up for some confessions?
:D

A. I constantly wonder if things would have been differently if we had never moved away from each other.
B. I wish I could know what you're expecting from me. I wish you would talk to me. I wish I wasn't so tired of having to say this.
C. I wonder why I wish you would let me help you so much. You've never done anything for me, but I constantly want to be there for you.
D. How is it that you still continue to piss me off, after everything that I've come to realize about you. And you know what it is that I realized? You're scum.
E. I hope you don't think bad things about me. I always want to know how I'm viewed in your mind.
F. I find myself wanting to learn more and more about you.
G. I never had any idea you were the kind of person you are. You remind me a lot of myself and I love hearing your thoughts.
H. I wish we could become closer friends because you're really awesome.
I. Sometimes there are things I want to tell you, but I feel like you already have enough stress going on, so I keep to myself. At the same time, I fear what you might say if I told you what was going on, because I probably know what it would be.
J. I want to know that you love me.
K. I think we should get together more outside of school because you're one of my best friends and I miss hanging out with you. You're also one of the people who know the most about me.
L. I don't know why, but I want to talk to you so badly. I need to try to get ahold of you, one way or another. There's so much I need to tell you; so much I need your help on.
M. What happened to that friendship thing we had going on? I don't know how you're holding up, but I hope you're doing well. I miss you sometimes. Sometimes.
N. I like that we're somewhat good friends, but I sometimes miss when we first started talking and things were all mysterious.


:)

<3

I love you guys. Let's talk? I'm up for hearing anything. SHARE YER THAWTS.



Random Facts:
- I wish talking in person was as easy as it is online.
- I dream of being an author, but I'm scared of sharing my real stories, because they're dark.