Lubriderm: Avanced Therapy Lotion

I'm almost done with Breaking Dawn (finally) and it's great. I want the Twilight movie to come out so bad but I'm worried about it at the same time. I hope it can live up to the book enough... The thing is, Stephenie Meyer is such an amazing writer that everyone is able to really get the images branded deep into their minds; The characters, their movements, their expressions, the atomosphere, and pretty much everything else. She's really a huge inspiration for me as a writer. I can't imagine how she feels... just started out by writing out a dream she had. If that wasn't a sign from God, I don't know what is :P It's so easy to get lost in these books...

Ay yi yi, then there's real life. I guess I only have horrible grades in two classes; Spanish II and AP World History. That's dandy. All of the stuff that life's been dealing to me has been making me rougher on the edges, I'm starting to notice. I'm becoming more outspoken and even mean in some cases. I guess I'm tired of just keeping quiet and I realized I won't get anything unless I say something. So here, I'm going to let some things be known here and now:

You need to try talking to me. I've tried many times and the conversations have been lame as hell. I know you're busy, but I also know you're able to text other people. I miss you and I love you and you need to show me that you feel the same because I know you do. Text me or message me or comment me or ANYTHING to show me that you actually care. I know you do, but I need to see it. It's ridiculous that we're doing this again but I've tried changing it around; it's your turn. I think about you everyday and I don't know what's up with you or how your life is right now. Make some time for me. You already know I hate when we don't talk. We've been through this.

I honestly feel like you're keeping something from me and like you've changed in some way. If you're telling the truth and it's really nothing, then try thinking about how you're acting maybe? You've been different and it's putting me on edge because it's unfamiliar. I can't shake the feeling that something's wrong here.

I'm not sure what you'd like to talk to me about. Maybe the reason I joke with you and say things to interrupt you is because whenever you talk to me, I feel shy because it's like I'm meeting you for the first time, you've changed THAT much. I find it easier to talk to people I'm still comfortable with. I miss the old you, back when you had the right people in your life. I'm not trying to be mean but you're so different it's hard to converse with you. Plus sometimes it's easier just to walk away because I missed you for so long that you became sort of blurry to me.

"How can I decide what's right
When you're clouding up my mind?
I can't win your losing fight
All the time.

Nor can I ever own what's mine
When you're always taking sides?
But you won't take away my pride.
No, not this time.
Not this time.

How did we get here?
When I used to know you so well.
But how did we get here?
Well, I think I know.

The truth is hiding in your eyes
And it's hanging on your tongue.
Just boiling in my blood.
But you think that I can't see
What kind of man that you are,
If you're a man at all.
Well, I will figure this one out
On my own.
(I'm screaming, "I love you so.")
On my own.
(My thoughts you can't decode.)

How did we get here?
When I used to know you so well, yeah.
But how did we get here?
Well, I think I know.

Do you see what we've done?
We've gone and made such fools
Of ourselves.
Do you see what we've done?
We've gone and made such fools
Of ourselves.

How did we get here?
When I used to know you so well, yeah, yeah.
How did we get here?
Well, I used to know you so well.
I think I know.
I think I know.

There is something I see in you.
It might kill me.
I want it to be true."



SheriClarity is the sunshine of my days right now :D
I LOVE YOU, BERI <3