To the delirious eye, more lovely things

Though I turn, I fly not -
I cannot depart;
I would try, but try not
To release my heart.
And my hopes are dying
While, on dreams relying,
I am spelled by art.

Thus, the bright snake coiling
'Neath the forest tree
Wins the bird, beguiling,
To come down and see:
Like that bird the lover
Round his fate will hover
Till the blow is over
And he sinks - like me.

I love poetry, I love stories, I love it all. I've missed writing so much. gM#$T#T)#MGM) I'm just like filled with joy over sitting here and reading my huge Edgar Allan Poe collection book. 1023 pages of pure Poe genius. I'm in love.

I really don't want to go to school tomorrow, I had such an amazing weekend. I can't wait for summer and all the super fun times. I took about 38 videos today of car rides and Olive Garden :D I'm excited to upload them.

I love, love all of you. And expect more writing in the near future from me ;D

I'm a lion

My weekend has been incredible so far :)

After school on Friday, I went home with Sheri and we ate strawberry ice cream with salt and vinegar chips <3 while watching Maury and Viva La Bam. Then we straightened our hairs, put on makeups, and went to Burger King, where we waited for her boyfriend and his friends. I then spent the night with them at the square and got to hang out with Raz, too :D

I spent the night at Sheri's. Stickam, omg xD I have the best times ever with that girl, I swear.

Then we got up REAL early today (like 7-8) and she took me home and I slept until like 12 and then she picked me up and we went to the mall :D and her boyfriend and his friends were there, toooo.

"Oh! Heyyy..." LAWL.

Then I went home and Colin has been over since and he's currently watching some really boring movie and taking up the entire bed so I decided to get on the computer :D

He turns 18 tomorrow :P

Okay, anyway. Yeah. I'm very, very deep into thought about something. I hate it whenever there's an obstacle that isn't necessarily BAD, just won't get out of your way, or constantly confuses you; just sets you off a bit. Oh well.

I'm going to have to write my obsession essay for Kubik tomorrow, so I'll probably post that story on here :)

I love you guys <3

Girl, you so fiiiine

Well I WAS proud of myself until like 5pm :/

I tried really hard and got through the toughest parts only to give in at the end. Just as yesterday, I am deeply disappointed in myself. I must, must keep the strength to do this. I just have to.

I'm not sure how my weekend is going to go. I got to spend the afternoon with Colin and he just left, but I don't know if I get to see him tomorrow, since he has to do this catering thing. So let's make some plans or something !

I'm not so sure what to write now because I'm freaking tired and my eyes are burning for some reason.

I love you guys, though.

OH ! I got my A Day to Remember CD today :D I love it <3

Goodnight
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Best Weekend Ever :)

On Friday, Sheri, Colin, Nitty, Hooly, Carolina, and I went to Fresh Market and annoyed the customers whilst talking to Hosef. We bought garlic and herb bread and left for SUBWAY FRIDAY! We havent gathered there in about 3 weeks so our people were like "AHHHHH YOU'RE BACK!!!" It was great (: We def entertained the customers there, lawl lawl. Then Nitty and Holly were like "We were grounded!" and the manager said she'd write us a note xD so she put:

To the parents of Ally, Sheri, Austin, Julian, and Colin.

This is the manager of Subway and I would like to ask if any groundings occur in your children, please don't make them groundings from Subway! I very much enjoy these teenagers and seeing them every Friday is important to me. Any questions, call this number.

Mandi.

It was something along those lines but it was awesome and we were like HAI THANKS! After Subway, we called our parents and stuff and went to HOOLY and CAROLINA'S house to stay the night :D

Amazing. Things we did:
Ball Smacking
Wii Sports
Cookie Dough Eating
Too Much Laughing
Cockroach Hunting
Blockbuster at like 9 or 10
El Orfanato
A good bit of SCREAMING
Running from Hooly's farts
Scrabble
Walking
Sitting backwards in the car
Playing with Piralou
You Would
Huddling Together - basically cause of TOMAS
Looking at old yearbooks
Sheri, Nitty, and Hooly slept in Hooly's bed
Colin and I slept in the guest room

SATURDAY!
Baked the remaining dough
Ate the cookies
Made miis
Played wii
Lazed around
Nitty and Sheri left
Colin showered
Don't Mess with the Zohan - stupid
Colin and I left to get changed
Met Hooly and Carolina and their madre at Denny's
Went to Florida Mall
SEPHORA
Crepe Market, omyum
Met some of their family
Went back home


:D And I have to say that I love Colin Shaw very, very much <3333

I left my charger in his car, my extra battery in Hooly's madre's car, and my school stuff in Carolina's trunk.

xD

whoops.

Anywhore, best weekend ever, I love them all, definitely my best friends.

<3 COMMMMMMMENT

I had a really good weekend.

On Friday, Sheri and I went to Hooly's after school to watch FORGETTING SARAH MARSHALL. Wonderful movie :p Then Colin picked Sheri and me up, dropped Sheri off at home, then took me home to change before we went to Bean's brother's house. Yeah, I sat there with Ariel while Matt, Colin, Bean, and Matty Warr played video games. Was really boring xD so Colin took me home and we chilled around for maybe an hour before he went back to Matt's house. I pretty much fell dead asleep 30 minutes after he left :)

On Saturday, I woke up to find that Colin was here and after some convincing, he got me to go to his house. I brought my school stuff and my laptop so I could get work done :) He finished TWILIGHT while I was there and I was excited cause I could then show him some trailers without having to skip parts :D We watched CLICK with his parents and ate some really yummy pie his momma made. I ended up staying the night, I watched him play BIOSHOCK which I found really cool and creepy, then we slept on an air mattress in the living room :p

I woke up at like REALLY EARLY HOURS cause his dad was in the kitchen xD it wasn't even slightly light outside yet. I pretty much tossed and turned from that point forward until we got up and ate CHEERIOS! Then we chilled around for a bit before he dropped me off here so he could go to his flight lesson. So, it was a really good weekend. Right now, I'm finishing homework so I can relax for the rest of the day. My mom bought me the TWILIGHT soundtrack so I'm currently listening to that and I love it, I'm so excited for the movie. Okay, I love you all!

<33

My Weekend

On Friday, Carolina, Hooly, Nitty, Allie, and I went to Subway for Subway Friday :) and our people were there as always. We learned that if Nitty had an identical twin that was sent to the future while Nitty was frozen, that twin would marry the one employee there, hence the reason her son looks like a Nitty spawn. Afterward, Colin joined us and we all went to Carolina and Hooly's house, game room FTW. Nitty broke his belt and Hooly farted. Then, Buffalo Beat Cafe, which was pretty good. THEN, Colin and I drove Nitty home while Nitty sat in the back telling scary stories about his neighborhood and making Colin drive past the haunted house, WHICH freaked me out, especially after Colin randomly slammed on his brakes, looked out my window, and screamed. Thanks babe, I think I peed a little.

On Saturday, I woke up at 1pm and lazed around until Colin came over, and we played video games until 6, when we made reservations at Carrabbas. Then we got all dressed up in our homecoming stuff - since we didn't get to go to it - and went out :) My dad paid for it all too, so that was really nice. We got home and we thought about going to see City of Ember at the Oldmill Playhouse, but we were too full and found better things to do ;) He spent the night that night and we slept on the couch's pull-out bed, yay!

Today, after yummy pancakes made from my mommy, Colin took me to his house and we chilled. His mommy makes amazing hot artichoke spinach dip i think it's called? either way, OM NOM. Then we went to my house and he ate dinner here :p while I drank MILK and then we cuddled and talked and had a moment. Then he went home and now I'm doing this.

FIN.

we missed you tonight <3

comment!

Here we go;

Weekend = interesting. Mostly good though. On Friday, I went to the fall fest and hung out with Nitty, Allie, Hannah, Colin, those people :) It was boring though. Taco Bell is nom nom worthy! On Saturday, Colin came over and we pretty much chilled. I went searching for spray wax and ended up with epic failure. Then today, I went to Sally's and got some 18" hair extensions in BLACK :D and got some spray wax from Wal(star)Mart. It was pretty lame today though, I was in a wicked weird mood and I'm having weird head/visual things. I got home and TRIED to nap but Colin was too awake :p

I'm still trying to deal with figuring my life out. I went to church Saturday night for the first time in over a year. I loved it. I missed it. It made me feel so fresh. It was Church @ The Springs, in Ocala. They're SO down to Earth and you can easily relate. They sing up-to-date songs and just make you feel like you're all a big family. I vowed to myself to go every Saturday.

I need to start taking pictures for Mr. Archer at school. He needs one for the cover of the Daily Sun and asked me to do it. I need to give it to him in time to edit it by October 4th xD I'm glad he asked me though, I think I'm going to join the Journalism Academy next year :D

I want to apologize ahead of time if I become mean to some of you, like I said, my emotions are on a roller coaster right now. I miss a certain part of me, a part I can't share with everyone. I miss it oh so much and it's hard right now for some reason. Since I've been off the Prozac, my emotions are easier to get out. I cry more easily and anger is let out quicker. So excuse me for that.

God bless <3

My weekend

was definitely busy. After school on Friday, Hooly's sister took him, Nitty, and me to Target and places such as that. Colin met us at Target and took Nitty and me to my house to get changed for the square. We got there and went to Barnes and Noble, taking pictures and probably being annoying. We saw two of our teachers there xD so that was interesting. Oh and there was an accident or something in the square, there was an ambulance and stuff. We couldn't really see much though, but I hope they're okay. Eventually (:P) Hooly and his sister showed up and we all walked around some more, mainly to Barnes and Noble again to find a journal for Nitty and I. We bought this amazing one that came with a lock and two keys (perfect). Then, Hooly and I got cupcakes and Nitty spilled water :D It was all pretty exciting. After that, Colin came to my house and we got to spend some time together, which was really nice. I'm pretty sure I was 95% asleep when he left though :p

On Saturday, Colin came over, we got Panda Express, which was kinda good but kinda not, then we went to Larry's. The three of us went to Publix cause Matty was working, but we couldn't find him. We left for Ramshackles and got a text from Matty saying he was on break. So after Ramshackles, we went back and saw he was a cashier :) With Larry, Colin, and me, it was asking for trouble. We each went around and grabbed a banana, extra large and extra lubricated condoms, and whipped cream. We told Matty we'd see him at his house when he got off work ;D

After that! We picked up Stephen and went to Larry's brother's house. There was definitely a lot of people there so it was akward, although the dogs were wonderful :) Next, we went back to Larry's for a little (I think, I don't really remeber what we did in this time). Eventually, we ended up at Kyle's and pretended to kidnap Dustin, although that didn't really work. This is where my night got weird. While standing there, I got overwhelmed with emotions that I hated. Severe sadness and others I couldn't identify. I could feel my throat constricting, but I couldn't understand why, I never was this emotional around people. Eventually it got to the point that I had to tell Colin that I needed out of there. Of course, that's the exact time that Kyle was taking his girlfriend out the door, so I had to hold it all in until we got to Larry's car. Once there, I just started crying, couldn't hold it in anymore. I was so confused though, it was just like the stress and confusion of the whole week came out in a sad, wet mess right then and there. Of course, I didn't want anyone to see me like that, so Colin tried opening Larry's car door for me and the alarm goes off.

Perfect.

We wait for Larry to turn the alarm off and unlock the door (thank God he stayed in the doorway and didn't come out to the car). We got in and that's where I unleashed more tears and sob stories. I didn't really want to stop the waterworks though, I could tell I needed to get everything out. I hated being there, I was uncomfortable. I don't like going places where I don't know people, I always feel akward just standing there by the wall, I HATE it. So I had Colin text Larry to see if we could go soon. Unfortunately, I couldn't dry my eyes by the time they got out there, so I had to curl up against Colin, keeping my back to the front seat. It was easy enough to pretend I was asleep though.

I listened as Larry drove us to the lot across from Matty's house and we parked there to wait for Matt to get there. Larry and Stephen jumped out when Matt drove up, but Colin stayed with me until I told him he could go. I took a moment to try to make myself decent before I went out to hug Matt. I still felt that shakey feeling in my lips and throat though, so I was thankful it was dark outside (this was around 10:30). I think Larry made a comment that I looked really tired, so at least I had that on my side, instead of them knowing it was really because I had cried my eyes out.

We went to Larry's while Matt changed at his house. Eventually we took some crazy pictures/videos and got in the pool/hot tub. THAT was definitely interesting, but I'm so used to it. By now, I was feeling better, thank the Lord. Honestly, I was quiet through most of this part though because I was talking to Him, I needed His help to keep me strong and on the right direction instead of heading down paths that I had easily taken before. After the pool, Bri and I baked a cake, a whole cake :) It was chocolate and we put chocolate chips, coconut, blue icing, and pink sprinkles on it. Oh and the icing was special ;D It was the normal chocolate icing, but we added peanut butter to it, so it was extra special.

Orange juice is good too, you know.

This was around 4:30 and I think around 5:30, Larry, Stephen, Colin, and I crashed in Larry's bed, but he left around 6 cause we pretty much pushed him off :)

All in all it was pretty fun except for the evening. But God helped me, I'm sure.

Today, I got homework done and now I'm relaxing. I'm exhausted and feel kind of sad. I'm thinking the reason I'm feeling so emotional is cause I stopped taking Prozac. Like, cold turkey. Dunno if you're supposed to do that or not, but I have been. Oh well.

This was long, so please comment x

WOW

I saw Cirque Du Soleil last night, La NOUBA! and it was phenomenal! Oh, it was so funny too, which I never expected. I went with my dad, brother, and Colin :D mom was supposed to go but she was really sick :( She needs to get better, seriously, I'm worried about her.

Speaking of worried, I'm also worried about my best friend, because I think she made a bad choice :(
It's not that I'm worried, really, it's just I'm concerned or something. I don't know, seeing as concerned and worried are cousins pretty much. I just kind of feel like *slaps forehead* I guess.

I seriously need to try to stick to a good eating plan. I tried this diet but it was way disgusting xD so I'm just trying to watch what I eat now. Like, no soda, more water and stuff like that. We bought a bowflex, we just need to set it up, so that will be really good, I'm excited for that.

I have to do homework and I don't want to, ugh. I'm honestly so sick of school, like I don't know, it's such a DRAG this year. I have no desire for it and it just feels like a big game, in my opinion. I'm getting that I Don't Care attitude that I acquired last year and I guess it should worry me, seeing as where that led me, but it doesn't. I guess I'm welcoming it.

That part worries me a wee little bit, somewhere deep inside my bones and muscles and guts.

I took a bunch of pictures the other day and went to upload them but realized Yoshi had chewed through the usb cord and it's now shot. So I guess I'll have to beg my dad to let me put the memory card in his camera and then upload. We'll see how that goes xD

How was everyone's weekend?

off x