I feel

replaced. I'm having a hard time grasping that you'd choose her over me in some cases, believe her before you'd believe me. I don't get why I'm immediately the first suspect, but you know she'd never do something like that. I don't think it's fair that you're suddenly doing this, and I hope you know it hurts. Yeah, it really does. I miss you and I miss the way you used to be in some ways. You've changed/are changing a lot and I can't help but think some of it is her. I don't like the feeling that I'm losing you and I hate feeling like I need to fight for you, I shouldn't have to. It makes me mad but also really sad to see how easily I'm set aside in your point of view.

Today sucked. I got really sick in second period, almost threw up before third, got sick again in third, had to call my dad to bring me medicine, then had a serious issue xD, had to go home after fourth, dad sent me back at the end of fifth, and I forgot to do all my spanish homework. Apparently all my teachers are telling my dad I'm either too chatty or I don't do my homework. Well fuck school, and fuck this year, it's God damn lame and I hate it, I hate school so much.

I'm getting my new phone TOMORROW, hopefully. It was supposed to be Monday, then today, but now I'm pretty sure tomorrow. BETTER BE TOMORROW. I'm getting impatient, and my phone sucks balls. Colin came over today though, so that made me feel better :) I love him <3>

Oh and I miss you. Not you from above, but a new you. I miss you more than you can imagine and I hate how you're never around. I know it's not your fault, it's your life, but I miss you, oh so much. And I love you <3

I hope tomorrow's better.

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