Wednesday, March 11, 2009

But I'm fine, just fine, you understand, right?

Oh I am so, so sick of feeling like I've screwed my life up. I hate feeling like it's too late to fix all of my grades. I hate how school completely makes up who we are. If we don't do good, we seem lazy or stupid. And if we do amazing, people act like we know everything, expect us to be "honor students" in every single aspect of our lives.

I hate where I stand right now. I literally feel like I'm just wobbling in every direction, but my feet are stuck. Time is going too slow, I want to fix my past, I want to rush forward, I just want to get out of where I am.

Nothing is right. It's all so wrong. And I can't figure out where to go; how to even BEGIN to fix it.

I'm feeling a bought of anxiety and stress coming on. I should just get locked up for awhile so I can get my thoughts together.


NittyWood said...

I so agree with the first part.
its redic.
feel better. i loooove you.

LOL the verify thing i have to type in says

FaexLOVE said...

Yeah, I feel like I'm digging myself into a hole in history. I hate that all our teachers are like you guys are honor students and this is how you act? blah blah blah it's all bullshit. Just because we're in a certain class doesn't mean we act a certain way it just means we're a bit smarter than the rest you know?
Wtfever, I'm over school.

DannyPhantom said...

I know exactly how you feel with the wanting to fix your past and wanting to rush forward. I want to fix my past but at the same time I want to run away from it all. Though I do feel cowardly. I hate hate hate! panic attacks. "/