Is it incredibly crazy to say that even though I'm surrounded by really great friends, I still feel so incredibly alone? I feel as if I'm so torn between things in my life. This vs. that, him vs. her, today vs. yesterday. It's like I can never get to a happy medium in my life, not even more a little bit.
One day, I'm satisfied with how things are going. Then the next, I want to scream and cry and rip my hair out. It's like I can't ever win.
I wish I wasn't so afraid to be honest with people about how I really feel.
I'm worried about something right now, and I'm praying really hard that things aren't how I suspect they are. If so, I will feel really let down. Hurt.
No, you know what. I'm not going to let this get worse. I'm going to fix it, because I probably made it happen in the first place. I won't let things get out of hand. It was a promise, as I was constantly reminded, and I have to keep my end of the promise. I'm going to fix things, as hard as I have to try.
11 months ago